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That's it.One bloody whole week of sleeping till 12pm.I'm damn sure am pissing every single person in the house with my sleeping pattern.I've stopped working this month,following my aunty's suggestion.Still they wanted me to go to the office once in a while..to keep watch or something as they can't tahan seeing me doing absolutely nothing in the house.

Come on,what's bloody wrong with me doing absolutely nothing in the house?I know sleeping so much is wrong what more i've been doing this for one week.I just bloody refuse to wake up early.What's the point?As if there's a life waiting for me to save in the morning.Waking up late is good..hell,i'll be wasting half a day without my knowledge.I don't have to care bout what i gonna do to pass the time.Most importantly,there's fucking NO RESPONSIBILITY!

On top of it,i didn't leave the house to go out with friends.Wait..what friends?No more friends for me.All are gone elsewhere.All of them are already in the unis.So who's left?Only jian hua is here now.But he's leaving soon.He's been the best buddy i ever had.The past weekend,he's been asking me out but i rejected flat out.Why?Coz i don't have the fucking mood to go out.

And the commencement date of my course is nearing,i need to worry bout packing my luggage;buying a few clothes,etc.Feels so hard to leave ipoh again after staying here for six months and more already.Gotta start all over again,making new friends and so on.Whatever it is,i just don't want any of those politics shit in the class.Like i'm-in-this-group-and-you-are-in-that-group-so-mind-your-own-business kinda thing.Not like it's avoidable..neway,i hope the effect is minimal.

Why can't we all become one big group of friends?Like in our secondary school days.Surely,we'll have our own small set of friends but not to the point of severing ties with others in the class lar like what happened in my a-level class last time.And speaking of which it's saddening to know that i'm all but forgotten in most of my ex-classmates' mind.Especially those not so close to me.A good example is the yahoo group that is created by one of them.

After reading their msgs,only the other wai kit is being mentioned.Yes,there are two wai kits in the class.Let me make this CLEAR,i'm not trying to seek popularity here.It's just that everytime the name wai kit is being mentioned,they will automatically assume it's the other wai kit.HELLO?What's bloody wrong?Where's the logic gone?Left in the bathroom?I know i know,the other wai kit is far more intelligent than me mar,plus he's going to NUS and far far more sociable than me right?If you were to ask them to choose which is the better one of coz they will not hesitate to choose him.

Actually,they don't need to choose..i never 'existed' neway.For the dunno-how-many-times in my life i feel so worthless and outcasted.Okay,i'm a fair guy..before i start pointing fingers and pushing the blame to them,i need to reexamine myself first.What have i done to deserve this?Yes,i'm a bit of an anti-social.I tried my best to fit in but i failed miserably.All because of i can't speak fluent mandarin.So that's the reason why our primary school teachers kept saying bout learning more languages will do you good eh?The advice couldn't be so true now.

One more thing,i always take friends for granted.I seldom make the effort to better the relationship,constantly leaving it to my friends to do the job.Guess that's why i'm such an ignored figure to the majority of girls in my class.So many flaws..see already girl also run lar.

Changing?I'm trying but don't expect a miracle from me.And i can't change to suit everyone's taste.I admit i'm a loser but what can i do?Every day i'm learning how to be more receptive for the girls still i yielded nothing spectacular.Prolly all of you gonna say i deserved to be like this.Yes,i'm boring,don't come near me.

I've been proved wrong.My ex-clasmates are not like what i accused them of.Suffice to say,all is well and steady.I apologize for behaving in a ridiculous manner.I guess i'm just blinded by anger in a spur of the moment.I've learnt my lesson.