What ifs...

Life can really surprise you in a strange way.The other day i saw a couple of secondary school students,hands holding,walking to the direction of yik foong complex.Though it has only been bout 3 years since i graduated from secondary school,i started to reminisce on the past experiences of my own.Thinking back,i feel that i should have achieved more,both academically and socially.This time around,i'm gonna concentrate solely on the latter.Cause,if compared,my past social life suffered more flaws.There are actually a lot of things that i could improve on to make my social life more fulfiling.Things that can make me boast with pride,'Hey,i had enjoyed my secondary days to the max!'.By that i don't mean i should have got high doing drugs or smoking cancer sticks.It's more on the down-to-earth and fundamental aspects of the life of a school-going student.It's about expanding my network of friends,being more receptive towards girls and going places.To say that my number of friends are less then 10 is an understatement but the number isn't that big neither.Knowing friends shouldn't be limited to the confines of the school compound.Sadly,i did just that.I do know a friend from smi but that's about it and a few hi-bye friends.If i spent a little bit more effort,surely i can get to know even more.Cause,it really widens your perspective and you score points on friendship making too.More importantly,i should get to know girls.During the secondary days,the number of times i went out with girls was as good as none.Pretty outrageous huh?Even i,myself couldn't believe this shocking but true fact too.I tended to shy away when there are girls in the vicinity i.e tuition classes,inter-school gathering.I swear that you could see me breaking out in cold sweat.Perhaps,studying in a single sex school had done me more harm than good in this particular aspect.Needless to say,i always feel jealous seeing my friends chatting away with girls or going out with them.It amazed me they can pull it off effortlessly without raising an eyebrow.Of cause there is always a bright side to all these short-comings of mine.Told you,life surprises you in strange way.So the saving grace was i did quite well academically.I managed to obtain brilliant results in my public exams.But then again,there are ppl out there who could excel in both.But let me make it known,i'm not one of them.