Musings

I'm baffled.My hp didn't receive a single sms today.Man,talk about having a dry spell.However,this is not my first time.It happens occasionally.So,there is no need to be alarmed and press the panic button.There's this problem of giving and taking which is nagging me.I have a guilty feeling that i receive smses more than i send out.Most of the time, i will only sms when i'm prompted to do so.It would be a miracle if u found me sms-ing out of the blue to my friends to have a chat.I don't usually do that.Some may accuse me of being arrogant or insensitive but i strongly deny that.Perhaps,i'm just being plain lazy when it comes to this.Another problem that warrants a mention is my slowness in typing out sms(su ann can vouch for that).Well,it's not that i'm slow.The keypad of my hp isn't built for fast typing.I find the keypad isn't tactile enough.All the buttons are flat and they give me a hollow feeling everytime i press them.I would very much prefer if the buttons are raised higher so that i can hear the satisfying 'click' sound whenever i press it.To top it all,i'm a lame perfectionist.I need to choose the right things to say and carefully select the appropriate set of words for the sms.More so when i'm chatting with someone i like.I love my smses to sound nice and to be conveyed effectively,u know.A wrong choice of words might trigger an umcomfortable feeling between the sender and receiver.Yup,i'm down right lame and pathetic.Speaking about the latter,i think i'm pathetic personified yesterday night.Su ann suggested playing ps2 at my house but i guess her presence was overwhelming.I'm so nervous that i couldn't even set up the ps2!It took me a while to figure out how it works.Unfortunately,i have a rather limited game catalogue so we only played two games.Nonetheless,'chocobo racing' on ps1 was quite fun.We had a good laugh at it.The things that marred her visit were my clumsiness.I dropped her her hp accidentally.Su ann,if you are reading this,i'm so sorry about it.I feel bad too.The other thing was i kept confusing her during our conversation i.e being slow in understanding questions,saying the wrong things.I was so freaking blur yesterday.I even forgot to ask her whether she wanted a drink.After effect of my sickness perhaps?