Love is...

Sometimes i wonder why i stay at home on saturdays.It's acceptable if i'm rushing to finish my assignments or preparing for exams.However,with the long holidays i'm having since december,it would be a sin not to go out and have fun.No?Though there aren't many entertainment options in the small town of ipoh,i believe that by not being at home,i'm already halfway in achieving my weekend hedonistic ambition.

Honestly,i have split opinions on the question of weekend outing.One side of me is itching to go out while the other is rather content with staying at home.No matter how,i will always end up following the latter.Since i'm consistently choosing to stay at home,why am i still complaining?Beats me.Could it be a case of not wanting to be left out?I have a worrying perception that peers my age tend to roam the shopping malls,watching movies or having a cuppa on weekends.I know that not everyone behaves the same way but i couldn't help it.

Jian hua has been asking me to watch 'the pacifier' since wed.I kept postphoning his invitation on every occasion.Normally,i wouldn't think twice on going out for a movie.More so when he's around.Anyway,the movie doesn't worth our RM18.Typical disney fare.Except for 'pirates of the caribbean',the storylines churn out by them are getting way too predictable or familiar.They should really buck up if they are thinking of appeasing the movie buffs.Well,i should stop giving any views before i begin to sound like a movie critic.

For the record,this week has really taken a toll on me.I would be lying if i say that i have fully recovered from it.But i can reassuringly say i feel relatively better now.All is well when i'm keeping myself occupied but it will get rather gloomy when i'm free.Unknowingly,the thoughts will come creeping into my mind.That's when i start thinking too much.Sadness will follow next.I do ask myself,am i actually ready for a relationship?Am i prepared to commit myself whole-heartedly?Will i be able to handle the ups and downs of it?

The fact is,it takes a lot of mutual sacrifice and undying efforts to maintain the well-being of a relationship.Something that cannot be learned in a day especially for first-time lovers.So much bout being pessimistic,if we don't give it a try,how can we actually know?Therefore,hesitation is unavoidable initially.Most importantly,we must have faith in the relationship.Without it,all else will be washed down the drain.