All hope is not lost

To state the obvious,life was in a complete disarray in the past few days.At one point,i couldn't put my to sleep at night.A lot of things were flashing through my mind.One after another.All these came when i was still trying to absorb the harsh truth.Things didn't get any better during the day too.My mind always seemed to wander off elsewhere,making it hard for me to concentrate on the tasks at hand.When sheer dissappointment got the better of me,i slept early.Too early in fact.Around 8pm.A sleeping time usually reserved for those odd days when i'm sick.To top it all,i found comfort in spending solitary time.

On a serious note,i know that am not getting anywhere if i continue being like this.It's time for me to move on and stop myself from being such a cry baby.This is for both my own good and others.I feel that i'm acting uncharacteristically immature for my age.On second thought,my problem seems so minute if compared to others.I'm worrying about being rejected while the rest are worrying about their examination results and university applications.It just makes me feel so childish.

After all,this isn't a breaking up.No doubt,ppl will laugh at me when they hear about this.On the hindsight,i have no reason to be ashamed.After all,this is my first time.Consequently,it makes my ability to accept and handle the outcome all the harder.Therefore,i feel that i have emerged a little bit wiser now.At least as far as i'm concerned.

However,i would like to state that i have not given up hope yet.No matter how hard it is,i'm determined to give it a try again.Don't get me wrong,i'm not being stubborn here.If all things failed,we can still remain as great friends.