T.G.I.F

Finally,i have managed to watch a movie with jian hua on friday night.It was supposed to be a promising movie,complete with a star-studded cast and an acclaimed director.When the credits started rolling,i had an uneasy feeling that i have spent my last 2 hours watching a rather ordinary movie.

The movie is titled 'divergence'.True to its name,the plot cunningly 'diverted' my understanding of the movie.Time and again i have been confused on who are the real protagonist and antagonist.I believe i'm not the only one in the cinema hall who was experiencing this.One may call it a thinker's film but i beg to differ.

A case of trying to hard to impress sums up the movie better.Anyway,credit to the director for keeping the audience guessing on who's the baddie right till the end.Not that i'm complaining,it's about the right time actually for a movie outing.Any decent movie will do.At the end of the day,'divergence' did a commendable job in this context.The last movie i watched was 'the eye 10'.

That was about two to three weeks ago.Ironically enough,it turned out to be a laugh-out-loud fest for the audience including me.Hence,don't be deceived by its spooky trailer.But of cause it had its fair share of scary moments too.To draw an analogy,a horror movie without the jump-out-from-seat moments is like a viper without its fangs.

Anyhow,i'm looking forward to the BIG ones i.e star wars episode III,war of the worlds,batman begins.Speaking about episode III,i saw its theatrical trailer before 'divergence' is shown.Wicked stuff.And the sight of darth vader coupled with the sound of his mechanical breathing - awesome!

Coffee and tv

The final episode of latte@8 for season three has been shown.As the title of the show suggests,it has something to do with coffee.To cut to the chase,it's a talk show with a malaysian flavour.Here is how it works - every week,two or three guests will be invited to the show to be interviewed by the host.Basically,they will be asked on topics close to their hearts.In between the interviews,national headlines are being discussed in a humouring manner.Freebies are given away too.

Interestingly,it is held at a local starbucks outlet.Hence,one can expect plenty of coffee drinking.It is something refreshing considering that most foreign talk shows are recorded in studios.At the end of the show,there will be a performance by a local musical artiste.Usually,they come in the form of underground and up-and-coming bands.And did i tell u that the host is great fan of chelsea?I think if you cut him open,he will bleed all chelsea blue.He wore a chelsea strip for the finale by the way.

This is definitely a talk show malaysians can relate to.Unlike its foreign counterparts,the gags are much easier to understand and certainly strike a chord with the locals.More often than not,i feel at lost when i'm watching one of those american late night talk shows on satellite television.Admittingly,the jokes are funny but i found them very americanised.Something that only a typical american will appreciate it.Unless one is following the going-ons in the us of a closely,it will be headache for him or her to get the drift.

But hey,all of the above aren't the points of my ramblings here.I'm gonna dwell on a subject far more intriguing.At least as far i'm concerned.Something caught my eye when i was watching the show.It comes in the shape of a round object made of silicone and is coloured.Yup,i'm talking about wristband.The host was wearing a yellow wristband on his right wrist.All of a sudden,i have lost interest in hearing the on-going conversation between the particular guest and the host.All i did was fixing my eyes on the wristband he's wearing.

Questions started playing on my mind.'Is it a livestrong wristband he's wearing?' and 'Where did he get it from? were some of them.I was waiting eagerly for him to mention something about the wristband.Fortunately,he didn't fail me.Turned out that it is a wristband produced by the national cancer society.It's in support of the cancer patients around the world and in malaysia especially.Very much the same like the one from lance armstrong foundation.The difference is that the latter is specifically in support of testicular cancer victims.

Currently,they can be bought at all starbucks outlets nationwide and the national cancer society itself.They are sold at RM5 each.At time of writing,i have no idea what words are inscribed on the wristband. So let's rally together and wear the yellow wristband to show our support for the cancer victims.

And the blues go marching in

Chelsea will be playing against scousers in approximately 2 1/2 hours time.It's the cl semi-final first leg.At stamford bridge.As mour puts it,'It doesn't matter if we don't win the first leg.We can always win it in anfield'.I'm sure the lads will heed his calming advice.Good luck blues!I will be supporting you all from the comfort of my home.

p.s:Congrats to terry for winning the pfa award.I'm over the moon for him.In case you need reminding,he's my hero.

Skeleton in the closet

I have seen this coming.The unhappiness within my family is raising its ugly head yet again.Frankly,this isn't alien to me.The problem has been there since time in memoriam.More like an endemic problem to be precise.Always there but only surfaces when there's a dissatisfaction in the family.Luckily,i'm staying in a extended family as the trouble mainly stems from my mom.For example,when in need,i can consult my aunty.

Rather we're better off staying separately.Mom has always been unhappy with how the things are run in the family.The whole family,not just the nucleus family.Mom is suspicious of a certain family member for having a hidden agenda.I'm not saying she's the culprit.I have been a fence sitter all along.It's a complicated matter.'Till today,i'm unable to pinpoint who's right and who isn't.It would be unfair if i sided anyone.Judging from past experiences,i think my mom is probably right.I realise that it takes a long term solution to resolve the problem amicably.Short-term answers will never work as can be seen from the past.

Too many quarelling and fights have occured.Some that i have witnessed myself with my own eyes.It's saddening to see how greed can manipulate a person completely.Money is placed above all else.Family relationship is caused to be in turmoil.Is money really THAT important?And i thought these things only happen on tv.Why it has to occur in my family?Thankfully,tolerance and patience are still evident in most of my family members.If not for them,the term 'broken family' will become a stark reality.But no matter how,the problem is always avoided like a plague.Nothing fruiful is being done about it.They will not even address the issue.

Since my mom doesn't have the bigger say,all can she do is grumble behind their back.Everytime she complains,i will be the one beside her,lending my ears.As a son,i don't quite have an option.All i can do is be patient with her.But i can understand her feelings.I know she needs to find a proper outlet to voice her anguish.Actually,i don't like hearing upsetting news about my family.It's already bad i have my personal worries and now i have to hear this.This isn't a case of being selfish.Getting involve in family turmoil isn't me at all.Furthermore,i'm not in the position to solve and certainly can't do anything bout it.I can't be outspoken as this is an extremely sensitive subject.I might risk offending the elders.

The 'don't care' attitude has been the hallmark of my family.We can afford to be happy and still lead a normal life daily.From the outlook,it looks fine but the problem will just stick there like a parasite.Slowly,it it consuming us.Honestly,it's only a matter of time when all hell will break loose.I dread the arrival of that day.All i can wish for is,by the time it happens,i have graduated and have a good paying job.

Me seth?Great!

You scored as Seth.You are amiable and insecure and are too willing to sacrifice yourself to make friends.Pursue your interests more to gain mastery over them and confidence in life.The more progress you make,the more your weaknesses and insecurities will fade.

What OC character are you?
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Well,how apt can it be?I'm most similar to seth albeit a less good looking one.Haha.

Love is...

Sometimes i wonder why i stay at home on saturdays.It's acceptable if i'm rushing to finish my assignments or preparing for exams.However,with the long holidays i'm having since december,it would be a sin not to go out and have fun.No?Though there aren't many entertainment options in the small town of ipoh,i believe that by not being at home,i'm already halfway in achieving my weekend hedonistic ambition.

Honestly,i have split opinions on the question of weekend outing.One side of me is itching to go out while the other is rather content with staying at home.No matter how,i will always end up following the latter.Since i'm consistently choosing to stay at home,why am i still complaining?Beats me.Could it be a case of not wanting to be left out?I have a worrying perception that peers my age tend to roam the shopping malls,watching movies or having a cuppa on weekends.I know that not everyone behaves the same way but i couldn't help it.

Jian hua has been asking me to watch 'the pacifier' since wed.I kept postphoning his invitation on every occasion.Normally,i wouldn't think twice on going out for a movie.More so when he's around.Anyway,the movie doesn't worth our RM18.Typical disney fare.Except for 'pirates of the caribbean',the storylines churn out by them are getting way too predictable or familiar.They should really buck up if they are thinking of appeasing the movie buffs.Well,i should stop giving any views before i begin to sound like a movie critic.

For the record,this week has really taken a toll on me.I would be lying if i say that i have fully recovered from it.But i can reassuringly say i feel relatively better now.All is well when i'm keeping myself occupied but it will get rather gloomy when i'm free.Unknowingly,the thoughts will come creeping into my mind.That's when i start thinking too much.Sadness will follow next.I do ask myself,am i actually ready for a relationship?Am i prepared to commit myself whole-heartedly?Will i be able to handle the ups and downs of it?

The fact is,it takes a lot of mutual sacrifice and undying efforts to maintain the well-being of a relationship.Something that cannot be learned in a day especially for first-time lovers.So much bout being pessimistic,if we don't give it a try,how can we actually know?Therefore,hesitation is unavoidable initially.Most importantly,we must have faith in the relationship.Without it,all else will be washed down the drain.

Music talk

After three years of wait,coldplay are finally releasing their third studio album.It will be out in the record stores sometime in june.As always,they have never failed to leave me in awe.From the album name(it's called X & Y) to the album art,they have been nothing short of breathtaking.Currently,their first single,'speed of sound' has been jamming the uk airwaves.Excellent stuff!Too bad,it hasn't reached our shores yet.Fortunately,for those who are interested,you can listen to it on their site.Judging from the explosive single,the album is bound to sell in millions.I can hardly wait!

All hope is not lost

To state the obvious,life was in a complete disarray in the past few days.At one point,i couldn't put my to sleep at night.A lot of things were flashing through my mind.One after another.All these came when i was still trying to absorb the harsh truth.Things didn't get any better during the day too.My mind always seemed to wander off elsewhere,making it hard for me to concentrate on the tasks at hand.When sheer dissappointment got the better of me,i slept early.Too early in fact.Around 8pm.A sleeping time usually reserved for those odd days when i'm sick.To top it all,i found comfort in spending solitary time.

On a serious note,i know that am not getting anywhere if i continue being like this.It's time for me to move on and stop myself from being such a cry baby.This is for both my own good and others.I feel that i'm acting uncharacteristically immature for my age.On second thought,my problem seems so minute if compared to others.I'm worrying about being rejected while the rest are worrying about their examination results and university applications.It just makes me feel so childish.

After all,this isn't a breaking up.No doubt,ppl will laugh at me when they hear about this.On the hindsight,i have no reason to be ashamed.After all,this is my first time.Consequently,it makes my ability to accept and handle the outcome all the harder.Therefore,i feel that i have emerged a little bit wiser now.At least as far as i'm concerned.

However,i would like to state that i have not given up hope yet.No matter how hard it is,i'm determined to give it a try again.Don't get me wrong,i'm not being stubborn here.If all things failed,we can still remain as great friends.

Tumble and fall

I guess i need to stop blogging for a while.Confusion is enveloping me right now.The saying of 'so near and yet so far' has never been so true and obvious.I think i need to clear the painful thoughts out of mind.It will definitely take a lot of time and isn't something that can be accomplished overnight.Finally,my hopes and desire have been destroyed.Well,that's the way it works when something is not meant to be.I have no one to blame.

It's time for me to slowly accept the fact as the reality sets in.I find it extremely hard to divulge the bane of my life here.I'm afraid i might break down.Suddenly,i find myself finding solace in a particularly poignant song.It is sung by feeder,entitled 'tumble and fall'.Wonderful song,especially when i'm in a state of anguish now.I will leave you with the lyrics of it...


All this for nothing,yeah yeah yeah
Praying and hoping,fooling yourself
You know that you can give love a reason
Give love a chance

We tumble and fall,together we crawl
Forever we'll be,tumble and fall

Heaven's above us,yeah yeah yeah
Living in solace,I give you it all
Just for a day,just for a second,
Just for the way

We tumble and fall,together we crawl
Forever we'll be,tumble and fall

Life's not the same,since that day you went away
I recall like the drops of summer rain that fell on me
Come back to me,come back to me,yeah yeah yeah

We tumble and fall,together we crawl
Forever we'll be,tumble and fall
Together we crawl,forever we'll be,tumble and fall

Paragraphing makes better reading!

After all the madness and rushing that i had gone through last mon,i feel that i'm better prepared now for the possible onslaught of work today.But,how wrong was i?!Office work took an 180 degrees turn today.Not many orders are received,no lifting of heavy parcels,few calls to answer,etc.In fact,i spent most of the time reading newspapers and staring blankly at the walls.Wow,can it get any better?I even found time to parasite the office's internet connection.It's like god has finally answered my prayers.Too good to be true but i'm definitely not dreaming.If you told me last week that this is gonna happen,i would have scoffed at you.Heck,i would have even bet all of my money in the piggy bank.

Anyway,such is the nature of business.You can be at the pinnacle of success at one moment and brought back down to earth in another.In my case,it's about business slowing down.The orders are still coming in but at a relatively slower pace.Well,all these biz talk have made me pretty pump up for the business degree i will be doing soon.

My great buddy,chun kit smsed me yesterday evening.Boredom was getting into him and he asked me out.Pretty astonishing,considering that he seldom smsed me since he has a new girl in his life.From that moment on,i have been relegated to cameo appearances in his life.Pardon me if i sound gayish or possessive.Haha.Honestly,it's good to see him that way.As a friend,i couldn't help but feel happy for him too.The downside was,i only realised that he smsed me after bout 5-6 hours?Yup,it was THAT long!I was too busy chatting with su ann you know.

Even if i knew about it,i would have given him a miss.As harsh as it might sound,i gotta do it for the sake of the chatting.Don't get me wrong,i treat my buddies quite well.Hmm...what a wonder a girl can do to me.I'm enchanted!

Musings

I'm baffled.My hp didn't receive a single sms today.Man,talk about having a dry spell.However,this is not my first time.It happens occasionally.So,there is no need to be alarmed and press the panic button.There's this problem of giving and taking which is nagging me.I have a guilty feeling that i receive smses more than i send out.Most of the time, i will only sms when i'm prompted to do so.It would be a miracle if u found me sms-ing out of the blue to my friends to have a chat.I don't usually do that.Some may accuse me of being arrogant or insensitive but i strongly deny that.Perhaps,i'm just being plain lazy when it comes to this.Another problem that warrants a mention is my slowness in typing out sms(su ann can vouch for that).Well,it's not that i'm slow.The keypad of my hp isn't built for fast typing.I find the keypad isn't tactile enough.All the buttons are flat and they give me a hollow feeling everytime i press them.I would very much prefer if the buttons are raised higher so that i can hear the satisfying 'click' sound whenever i press it.To top it all,i'm a lame perfectionist.I need to choose the right things to say and carefully select the appropriate set of words for the sms.More so when i'm chatting with someone i like.I love my smses to sound nice and to be conveyed effectively,u know.A wrong choice of words might trigger an umcomfortable feeling between the sender and receiver.Yup,i'm down right lame and pathetic.Speaking about the latter,i think i'm pathetic personified yesterday night.Su ann suggested playing ps2 at my house but i guess her presence was overwhelming.I'm so nervous that i couldn't even set up the ps2!It took me a while to figure out how it works.Unfortunately,i have a rather limited game catalogue so we only played two games.Nonetheless,'chocobo racing' on ps1 was quite fun.We had a good laugh at it.The things that marred her visit were my clumsiness.I dropped her her hp accidentally.Su ann,if you are reading this,i'm so sorry about it.I feel bad too.The other thing was i kept confusing her during our conversation i.e being slow in understanding questions,saying the wrong things.I was so freaking blur yesterday.I even forgot to ask her whether she wanted a drink.After effect of my sickness perhaps?

Continuation

This is bound to happen sooner or later - sickness.I have seen it coming after all the gargantuan amount of work and a poor diet.Thanks impart to the now infamous kfc 'curry crunch' chicken.And i did what every sensible patient will do - gulps gallons of water and herbal tea,sucks the sore throat lozenges,avoids everything which is fried and sleeps more.If you managed to accomplish the final one,you can forget about doing the rest.Dunno bout you but it seems to work for me.Perhaps,the sickness is still in the early stages.I'm feeling much better now.Heck,if feels great to be well again without the painfulness in the throat.Continuing from my previous blog,i'm proud to announce that i have managed to obtain myself a pack of the nike wristbands.The colours i got are marble blue,black(again!) and grey.I was hoping for a solid blue but then that's the only type of blue available.Marble blue is quite cool actually.The base colour is blue with a splattering of white colour here and there.Awesome!Unfortunately,yellow and red are nowhere to been seen again.What a letdown.Time and again i'm tempted to buy the whole collection at ebay to save me all the hassle and trouble.But the price is obscene!Way to ridiculous for me to pay more than USD30(excluding shipping fees) for it.On top of that,i still need to outbid those wristband fanatics in the auction.I guess i will settle down and wait for the next available stock to come.Maybe i will get lucky in the future.


Footie quickie
The second leg might be relatively dull in comparison with the first.Nonetheless, chelsea progressed into the semis with an aggregate of 6-5.Too bad they lost the second one.Rumour has it that the blues purposely let bayern to grind out a win.As it is the last time bayern will be playing in that stadium,only a win will do them justice.It makes a befitting farewell too.Another good piece of news is,chelsea will be meeting liverpool in the semis.Before this,the blues have met the scousers 3 times.Chelsea won all of them.Statistically speaking,chelsea have the upperhand but liverpool will never bow out easily without giving the blues a hard time.Whatever happens,this will definitely be a mouth-watering all english semi-final clash.

The road to istanbul begins

If yesterday was bad,today is worse,work-wise.As usual,i did almost all the things that i have mentioned in the earlier post.With the exception that the amount of work are doubled.To draw an analogy,if yesterday i was engaging in third gear,today i go full throttle!The dealers have been streaming in since 11am and it took us an awful lot of time to deal with each and everyone of them.Not to mention the number of orders we received by phone.On top of that,there were salesmen and guests that needed attention.Consequently,i have to sacrifice my lunch for more important tasks at hand.I only ate a piece of leftover curry flavoured kfc chicken for breakfast,and two pieces of kuih for tea-time.Hardly an ideal diet recommended by the dietician.A great opportunity to lose weight i think.Haha.Now i know why some ppl prefer studying to working.With all the increase workload,it only means one thing - business is going up!Definitely much better than last month when most of my time had been spent staring at the walls and reading newspapers.Come to think of it,i have gone in and out of the storeroom for more than 20 times to take out the goods.As a safety measure,i have to keep the storeroom door locked when not in use.So you can just imagine how tired my hands were.Heck,tiredness means nothing to me when there's a cl q-final second leg match between bayern munich and chelsea tomorrow morning.I have been anticipating it for days.I surely recognise a mouth-watering match when i see one.With chelsea having two-goals cushion only,it might not be enough to see off bayern.So this match will bound to be a cracker.If the blues either draw or win,they are just three matches away in laying their hands on the 'holy grail' that is the cl trophy.It will be their first european cup win for the reformatted cl.With a trophy already in the bag,it would be a cherry on the cake to go on and win the premiership and cl so that a treble can be achieved.Come 2.30am tomorrow,i will be glued to channel 81 to give my full support just like any true blue fans out there.After 90mins plus stoppage time,when the dust has settled,only one team will emerge triumphant.It would be the lads from west london.

Obsession

I never liked mondays.Boring and uninspiring.Now that i'm working for my family,i have more convincing reasons on why i dislike mondays.The period before lunch hour is the busiest and most demanding.I have to do the billing for the goods ordered;find empty boxes of suitable sizes so that i can fit all the required goods in;pack them for delivery;carry large heavy parcels with an average weight of 3kg each from the ground floor to the first floor and vice versa;answer calls,etc.Phew.Definitely not for the multi-tasking challenged.As weird as it sounds,i do enjoy doing some of those things.Especially the carrying the parcels part.Great opportunity to burn extra calories!While doing it,i have to take extra care not to dirty my precious wristband.Haha.My craze for the wristbands which come in various colours is ignited by the watching of footie matches.When i saw frankie wearing a blue wristband while playing for england,i was hooked.I knew that i gotta get one of those at all cost.Later on,i found out that different coloured wristbands have different meanings or purposes.To give you a clearer picture,below is the summary of what some of the coloured wristbands represent:


Black and white(interlocked) - Against racism
Yellow - Support for cancer patients
Blue - Against bullying


The wristbands have been selling like hot cakes.I find it hard to get hold of them nowadays.They are sold in nike outlets and come in pack of 3(different colours).Some wear it to support what it represents.Others wear it to add a little colour to their wrist and score points for being stylish.Haha.Sounds cheesy.But lady luck was with me yesterday.I was searching for them in jj and a friendly nike sales assistant told me that there will be a new stock this coming wed.What a delight to hear that.She even told me to come as early as possible to avoid dissappointment.Haha.Come wed,will i be getting my favourite yellow,red and blue wristbands?Or will i be coming home empty-handed?Stay tuned for the outcome.So which wristband that tickles your fancy?

Saturday night live

It's saturday!Time to hit the dance floor,pick up chicks with cheesy one-liners,be seen with the cool and famous,have a few rounds of booze(heineiken beer,served chill).Sorry,all of those are not gonna featured in my plans for today or any other saturdays.There are the things that you won't normally see me doing.It's not that i'm pretending to be goody two-shoes but i'm not buying it.Most of friends are not buying it.My family is also not buying it.Is it a curse or a blessing if you have friends who regard going for movies and 'yum char' as the be-all and end-all forms of entertainment?I don't think i need to come out with an answer.After all,it's up to your own interpretation.As long as i'm enjoying what i'm doing right now,i'm fine.Ppl say,'If it ain't broke,don't fix it'.Perhaps,i might have a different set of friends later on in sunway who dig clubbing.When that time comes,i will definitely give clubbing a try but in moderation of cause.Chilling out is one thing but if it begins to eat up your life,it could be disastrous.In case you are wondering,no,i'm not gonna pick up girls with cheesy one-liners like 'I've lost my number,can i have yours?'.Haha.Here's my favourite part:Clubbing is more than just dancing and drinking.It's about checking out the sexiest chicks and hottest hunks around.I'm pretty sure everyone will agree with me on this.I mean,where else can you find all of them congregating in one place?Frankly,i will be quite contented by just sitting down and doing absolutely nothing but ogling at the beauties.Sure beats making a fool of yourself on the dance floor anytime of the night.


Footie quickie
Chelsea is gonna be up against birmingham city at stamford bridge tonight.The blues won 0-2 away at st.andrews in their last meeting with goals contributed by huth and jt.The good news is mr.mourinho will be back in the dugout after serving a ban from the touchline during last thurs cl match.I miss him.His presence will surely boost the players' morale up a few notches.As usual from a chelsea fan,i'm hoping to see the visiting blues being routed by chelsea with a score of 3-0 or 4-0.Who says chelsea are boring?

Lonely hearts club

Sigh.Another week is coming to an end.It it raining outside as i'm writing this.Pondering on what to write actually.Let's talk bout the weather while i figure it out.It has been pouring cats and dogs almost every evening.The superstitious side of me wonders whether this has anything to do with the tomb-sweeping festival(ching ming).My grandma said it always rains during this time.Some sort of punishment meted out by god to the wandering souls on earth.Simply speaking,the rain spoils their partying mood.But the scientific side of me begs to differ.I would say this has to do with the monsoon season.Jian hua(great buddy,mentioned in earlier post)will be coming back from shah alam.His return means a movie outing at tgv is on the cards.A great movie buff,him.Nothing that he hasn't watched.He was supposed to watch with me a fortnight ago but something got in the way.Our plan was a movie marathon,two movies,back to back.The selection was 'the eye 10' and 'house of fury'.My mind was pretty much set on watching both of them but now i have to reconsider it.Reason is there are now 2 new movies joining in the fray:'samara' and 'be cool'.Man,making decision is sure one helluva headache.It would be tough and did i say he will be coming to fetch me in another 2 1/2 hours?Midnight shows are not really my thing.Lovers love them while us single hopefuls,loathe them.The lovers in the cinema hall are already 'actors' in their own right.Sort of like a sub-movie,so to speak.You can put on a whining face and see most of them getting cuddly and lovey dovey.For me,the pain of being single is magnified 10x whenever i'm watching a midnight show.Anyway,it's not all that bad actually.I do picture myself sometimes being just like them and wonder how good it can get.Hopefully,that dream could be materialised sometime in the near future.Haha.I have a bad history of going out for a movie with the opposite sex.Rather i have only watched a movie with a girl once.What a loser huh?But i appreciate that one and only outing so far a lot.It means so much to me.Can't blame me right?One outing only what.Lolz...

What ifs...

Life can really surprise you in a strange way.The other day i saw a couple of secondary school students,hands holding,walking to the direction of yik foong complex.Though it has only been bout 3 years since i graduated from secondary school,i started to reminisce on the past experiences of my own.Thinking back,i feel that i should have achieved more,both academically and socially.This time around,i'm gonna concentrate solely on the latter.Cause,if compared,my past social life suffered more flaws.There are actually a lot of things that i could improve on to make my social life more fulfiling.Things that can make me boast with pride,'Hey,i had enjoyed my secondary days to the max!'.By that i don't mean i should have got high doing drugs or smoking cancer sticks.It's more on the down-to-earth and fundamental aspects of the life of a school-going student.It's about expanding my network of friends,being more receptive towards girls and going places.To say that my number of friends are less then 10 is an understatement but the number isn't that big neither.Knowing friends shouldn't be limited to the confines of the school compound.Sadly,i did just that.I do know a friend from smi but that's about it and a few hi-bye friends.If i spent a little bit more effort,surely i can get to know even more.Cause,it really widens your perspective and you score points on friendship making too.More importantly,i should get to know girls.During the secondary days,the number of times i went out with girls was as good as none.Pretty outrageous huh?Even i,myself couldn't believe this shocking but true fact too.I tended to shy away when there are girls in the vicinity i.e tuition classes,inter-school gathering.I swear that you could see me breaking out in cold sweat.Perhaps,studying in a single sex school had done me more harm than good in this particular aspect.Needless to say,i always feel jealous seeing my friends chatting away with girls or going out with them.It amazed me they can pull it off effortlessly without raising an eyebrow.Of cause there is always a bright side to all these short-comings of mine.Told you,life surprises you in strange way.So the saving grace was i did quite well academically.I managed to obtain brilliant results in my public exams.But then again,there are ppl out there who could excel in both.But let me make it known,i'm not one of them.

In Chelsea we trust

By now you would have guessed that i'm a chelsea fan.Before i proceed any further,i would like to clarify that i'm NOT a bandwagon jumper.Roman ambramovich isn't the reason behind my undying support for chelsea.With or without him,i'm a chelsea fan for life.Yes,it's a great time no doubt,for chelsea.Most of the clubs would give up anything in the world just to be in their shoes.Endless supply of cash by the second richest man in europe and having the services of one of the most brilliant if not the best football manager in the world.Even the chelsea fans are having a jolly good time,soaking in the atmosphere.But i can safely say you can still find me supporting them even if they're relegated(if that's possible).With just seven matches left,the blues need 3 wins to secure their first ever premiership title since 1955.That's a whopping 50 years and a very long wait indeed.Along with the title,comes a number of record-breaking feats achieved or going to be achieved by chelsea during their title-chasing quest.There are:

1)Highest number of clean sheet matches
2)Longest time for a goalie not conceding a goal
3)Least number of goals conceded
4)Highest number of points accumulated in a league

Here's the latest from the champions league q-final between chelsea and bayern munich.The final score is 4-2.Brilliant footie game this.Frankie did particularly well in this match with his sublime skills.He scored a brace.As martin tyler puts it,'Lampard is absolutely SUUUUPERB!!!'.By the time didier smashed in the fourth goal into the back of the net,i was already in dreamland.At that point of time,i would have bet my whole savings account on chelsea making it into the semis.And now,the not so awesome part.The bloody two away goals.How could the referee gifted a penalty to bayern during the last 20 seconds or so was beyond my comprehension.It just wiped the wide smile on my face.So now the game is thrown wide open again.Come next wed morning,i hope to be the one having the last laugh.

A pleasant surprise

A couple of days ago,i received a very unlikely msg from an ex-alevel classmate.A girl.Look, not in my wildest dreams will i be expecting a msg from her,to whom i had struck a conversation for less than three times.Needless to say,i'm flattered.Come on,for a person as stuck up as me to receive a msg from a female classmate is something worth mentioning.Msges like these don't come often so i tend to over-appreciate them.Yes,i'm weird.What's even weirder is this msg was initiated by a pop shuvit CD(a local rock band).Apparently,she found out that i managed to get a copy of their latest album.She couldn't find it in kl,so she asked whether i could help her out.One thing lead to another and she soon found out that i'm not so quiet after all.'You were soooo quiet in class but you are a totally different person when i saw your friendster profile',she said in amazement.'Perhaps,we didn't get to know each other better',she added.Well,at least her comforting words let me know that i'm not so bad as i have perceived myself to be.My gut feelings tell me there's a faint possibility that i'm still in the girls' good books.Speaking bout bad,i'm erm...actually quite bad too.Most of the time,it is the girl who makes the effort to talk to me first.This is not good.Why am i reluctant to make the first move?I'm afraid of screwing up the conversation and making a bad first impression.Besides,since i'm such a bad ass in school,i don't think i deserve to send them a msg or give them a call.They won't reply anyway,right?The same goes to someone that i love or have a crush on.True,i can have smooth conversation with her once i get rid of my nervousness.However,will i find myself calling her at night or anytime of the day?I doubt that.Cause i dunno what the girl will think of me.Will she think of me as a stalker?A pathetic admirer?These are the things i'm afraid of.I mean i'm not even her official bf yet,what gives me the right to call her every day?I should respect her privacy,right?Consequently,i treat the courting process in a very slow pace.I don't want to freak her out.But too slow is not a good thing,i might lose out to some other guys.It is really tormenting loving someone but you are not sure when to let her know...

New facade,same old me

okie,this is the third time i'm tweaking my template.Always couldn't get it right.I decided to do away with my previous posts and to start anew again.A lazy sunday evening,i'm having.The thought of waking up early tomorrow makes me feel even lazier.How i wish everyday is a sunday.Nothing to do and worry about.Life is getting more mundane as days go by.Pretty routine stuff that i can easily sum it in three words:work,boring and boring.Not many friends are left in ipoh now.Mostly are out of state furthering their studies.Even the closest ones have their own commitment and new partners in life.Suddenly,i'm beginning to find it a chore to arrange a proper outing with them.So now the only one i can depend on is jian hua,one of my best buddies around.I'm glad he's not attached yet.Or else,i will really be alone and i don't like that feeling one bit.Come july,i will embark on a new phase of my life.The university life.Which means i will be moving to kl yet again.In the dark on what's in store for me.Will it be better or as disastrous as my a-level days at tarc?I dunno.The biggest mistake i made at tarc was not knowing enough friends.Girl friends to be precise.I think the girls that i know quite well can be counted with the fingers of one hand.Some of my friends have the privilege of doing something as simple as having lunch with girls which i don't.I dunno what's the problem with me.Here are the things that i shouldn't have done at tarc but it's already too late:

1) going to class like placing a take-away order at a fast food restaurant.Come and go.
2)Didn't take the initiative to approach girls first
3)Not learning to speak proper mandarin
4)Being stuck up and keeping to one self sometimes
5)Lacking in humour when talking with girls or rather my jokes weren't funny?

Here's hoping that i will not be repeating this when i'm in sunway.Otherwise i dunno what will become of me.Sad.On the bright side of things,i have made a few great guy friends.Without them,i dread to think how am i going to spend my 18 months at tarc.So thanks a bunch!